March

For ten years ... I have hated the month of March. On March 31 ,2000 , the love of my life Erik passed away. Ten years ago. It was something that I thought I would never recover from. And it was hard. I moved me and my kids up to Nacogdoches to go live in the woods and hide from the world.

Why do all my men leave me?

The summer that I was nineteen I got back into contact with my father. Id had no memories at all about him. So it was like a fresh new beginning. Well he died after that summer.

And then my Angel Erik. I didnt know what it was to be so appreciated by a man before he came into my life. He was my everything. Four years of wonderful memories , then he died.

And now my baby boy..... Maybe its me. Maybe Im cursed.
I miss you Phillip so much. Its been too long. We have never been apart this long.
Its time for you to come on home baby. Because mommie misses you so much. And I will never spank you again. I will never yell at you , I promise.Please come home. Please God let me wake up from this nightmare. Im not gonna make it , I dont even care. I dont want to make it. Their is no hope. I miss you Phillip.