Im at the hospital and I just have the worst attitude with eveyone . They knew I was coming. They ask me questions and I answer them like Im annoyed . And , I am so annoyed . They are messing up my plans. I have failed again. Why cant I ever get anything right? I just wanted to go and be with my boy. Thats all . What kind of monsters are they to make me go on living?
Im back there and they give me this thick black coal to drink. I empty out my Coca Cola bottle and pour it in there , Then I throw it in the trash. I am not helping them save my life. I want to die.
They admit me into the hospital and put me in ICU. My mom comes and she is crying. Asking me if I know what it will do to her if I die . Yes mama I do know. I tell her that I may have failed today but I am going to do it again and again. They have delayed me today but the ending to my story is inevitable. I am going to kill myself no matter what.
Im all by myself in there and Im so sad . Im sad because I am still alive.
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