04/16/2010

I wake up this morning and I feel wonderful. Wow , this is nice...

I am going to live. I don't know what I am going to do or where my life is going to lead me but I am going to live. I'm still angry with God but its like we have found a common ground.

I'm talking to the nurses all day. One of the nurses is so sweet , as I sit and tell her my story she gets this awful look on her face.
She says , " I'm from Alvin, my son went to the same school as your son. I remember when it happened the whole town was in shock. He was a special boy. "
She knows my son. All the way here far away from Alvin and shes my nurse and shes telling me about God and about Faith and shes saying that I am special that I have a purpose on this earth. She says that she knows that more than anything else. She was so sweet. I get up and I bathe , and I put on makeup and I even comb my knotted hair. I feel better.

Maybe I'm really gonna make it.

The psychiatrist comes back in and he is amazed at me . He says that he has changed his mind . He is not going to commit me . I have to promise to make an outpatient appointment and follow through with treatment and he will let me go tomorrow.


Wow , what a mighty God I serve...........